love, tell me -
tell me i see the future and you
will wind up well alone;
i don't want you with anyone,
especially me.
i pull your air into my lungs,
an influenza in every syllable of
breath. and i am a cluster of hills
across your face, the reason you
said you didn't believe in
wearing sandals in july.
i keep track of time
in terms of crossword puzzles,
sundays especially difficult
because i used to pray like god listened
to my repents and hopes then.
you would take my unfinished columns
and fill them in with a different pen colour
and that was how i knew things were
wrong.
and there was never any bitterness
to it either, the passing hand
and if you wanted to buy me flowers, by ohsostarryeyed, journal
and if you wanted to buy me flowers,
just go ahead now.
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my lovelies, you are indefinitely sweet to me. thank you so much for dealing with my bullshit. i'm going to make more of an effort to write, because it's healing for me, and i want to write something worth reading and to share it with you. you're seriously terrific, and i mean that to each and every one of you who reads this, genuinely.
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separately, i would like to remind you that i am still selling handwritten copies of my work! pleasepleaseplease note me if you're interested, all is negotiable, i am not unreasonable! <3
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john's bed was crooked against the wall, with enough space between the two for his pillow to slip down every night. it is never made but usually empty, much like the rest of the room. his wallet was full of condoms, the box in the slightly opened nightstand drawer with two strays within. john's socks were paired up neatly in his dresser, and he had no closet. a baseball bat was stretched across the threadbare rug in such a way that it would trip someone unfamiliar with the layout. like a robber. things you will never find there are his iphone, ipod, and his grandfather's pocket watch from when he was in the world war.
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